Small Talk

Caden Michael Railsback

2010-06-29T14:25:00.000-07:00

Caden is here!! He was born on June 22, 2010 at 5:53 pm. He weighted 7 pounds, 15 ounces and was 19 and 3/4 inches long. He is perfect!! The labor was the hardest and longest of the three kids. I would of never dreamed that I would labor for 24 hours with my third baby. It all started about 4:00 pm on Monday afternoon. I had been having contractions on and off for 2 weeks and had even gone to the hospital over the weekend but was sent home. Monday things had defiantly gotten more painful and the contractions were getting closer together. By the time Chaz got home at 6:00 I knew that we would be having a baby within the next 24 hours. I did my best to go about the rest of the day, cooking dinner and getting the kids to bed. I did manage to get a few hours of sleep before the contractions were too painful and at 2:00 am I called my mom and told her to start driving in from Baird. When she arrived at 5:00 am, Chaz and I were packed up and ready to head to the hospital. My contractions at that point were about 5 minutes apart. When we arrived they got us in a room and started hooking me up to all the cords. The nurse then checked me and the second I saw the look on her face I knew what she was going to say which was, "I think he's breech and very high up." I was dilated to a 2-3. The doctor was called to see what needed to be done and when he arrived with the sonogram machine we discovered that Caden was head down just very high up and at a weird angle. At that moment I had my break down. The tears started and I couldn't stop them. I really was so tired and had been in pain so long that I was not going to leave that hospital without having this baby first. The doctor did agree that it would be best to go ahead and admit me since we weren't certain if Caden would turn breech plus there was a lot of fluid and he was afraid if my water broke too early that the cord would come out first. So to a room we went. They hooked me up to some pitocin since my contractions needed some help staying regular and the long day began. I dilated very slowly since Caden was so high up and even after he broke my water it still took hours go get me to a 10 and when the pushing started so did the horrible rib pain. I've never had pain like that. Even with the epidual, with every push it felt like my ribs would snap. Caden's back was right in the middle of my ribs and the contractions and pushing were putting all the pressure in my ribs but after about 30 minutes of pushing Caden did make it out into my arms. We've really enjoyed every minute with him and I wouldn't change anything. Caden's name means warrior and he has proven that he is indeed that. Abby and Charlie have been great and love kissing and loving on their new baby brother. It's been so sweet watching them all together. God has blessed us so very much.

38 weeks

2010-06-20T17:36:00.000-07:00

Well here I am at 38 weeks, hot and very ready for little Caden. Things have been progressing pretty slowly and I'm trying very hard to be patient but as many of you know I'm not good with patience. I've prayed, cried and even thrown a few fists wanting this guy to come out. This has been a very long and hard pregnancy. I know I've had it really good compared to a lot of people and I'm trying very hard not to complain. Lately it's been really hard with this 100 plus degree heat, but at least the end is near. I keep reminding myself that I can't be pregnant forever even though it feels like it. Anyway, I'm anxious to hold this little guy. Abby is anxious too. She keeps asking if today is the big day. Can't wait to finally say yes. Charlie is in for a shock. He acts excited but I know he really has no idea how much his little world is about to change forever. I am excited to watch the kids interact with Caden. He's a very lucky boy to have such a great big sister and brother. Here's hoping that the next post is pics of Caden!!!

32 weeks and counting

2010-05-12T10:52:00.001-07:00

Well I'm nearing the end of this long, hard pregnancy. I've really tried to enjoy it since I know this is the last time I will do this but it's been very up and down. At 20 weeks we discovered that Caden has what's called a Single Artery Umbilical Cord which means he's only getting 50% blood flow. A normal baby has 2 arteries and one vein in the cord where Caden only has one artery and one vein. We've been so blessed that nothing else seems to be wrong. I've had sonograms with every visit and so far Caden is growing and developing great. I've also had so much sickness with him and lots of contractions. I've had to be on bed rest several times but thank goodness I've always been able to stop them and stay out to of the hospital. Our next challenge is turning him. Just like Charlie, Caden is sideways and the doctor is going to turn him at 37 weeks. This is very painful but I did with Charlie and at least I know what to expect this time around. It just doesn't stop with this very active little boy. He never seems to stop moving, in fact I've asked the doctor is it's a bad thing because he really is moving at all time. I'm a little worried this means he's going to just as active when he's finally here. Anyway I'm getting very ready for him to be here. I still have things to do in his room but it's coming together. I want to post pics soon after I hang some things up. I can't believe he could be in as little as 5 weeks. I have to be ready to have him when the doctor flips him because it could put me into labor.

20 weeks and counting

2010-02-17T14:42:00.000-08:00

Well I'm at the halfway mark. I'm finally feeling good again and some of my energy is coming back. I wish I could say that I'm motivated but I can't seem to find enough motivation to do much. The list feels way to long. Finding a new car is at the top and we're finally getting a start on that. Then we want to lay down wood floors throughout the downstairs. After that maybe I'll find some energy for the baby's room. The kids are doing good and keeping me very busy. Charlie is potty training and would probably be completely done by now but I've gotten lazy about reminding him to go. Abby is so supper excited about having a baby in the house and tells everyone she meets that she's getting another brother. It's really sweet. Anyway the big news is that we finally agreed on a name for the little one. It's going to be Caden Michael Railsback. He's middle name is after my brother who pasted away 2 and half years ago. I knew I wanted to use it as soon as we find out it was a boy. Caden is just a name we both liked. Anyway we're excited about meeting little Caden and seeing how crazy it's going to be having 3 little ones in the house.

It's a boy!!

2010-01-28T17:53:00.000-08:00

Well looks like Abby and Charlie will be getting a little brother. We're excited about having another boy and so glad that Abby took the news so well. She wanted a little sister so bad and had even named the baby Ally. But after we explained that she would be the only princess in the house and she wouldn't have to share any of her girly stuff she seemed to think that having another brother wouldn't be so bad. Chaz and I are both in shock because we really thought about this was a girl but very excited about having a boy. Charlie will have to get used to sharing all his cars which he loves. Anyway, I'm feeling good at nearly 18 weeks. Can't believe that I'm nearly half way through and now can't wait to meet my new little man.

We have an announcement!!

2009-12-06T14:23:00.000-08:00

Abigail will be 4 on the 12Th of December, Charlie turned 2 in September and July will mark another birthday for our new little one on the way. I'm 10 weeks now and still not quite over the shock even though I've known for about 7 weeks now. I feel very pregnant but can't seem to wrap my brain around the fact that I will have 3 kids 4 years and younger. I still feel like I don't have it together with 2 yet so trying to picture myself getting ready to go anywhere with 3 kiddos just makes me dizzy. At least this time around Abby will know what's going on. She was only a year when I got pregnant with Charlie but this time she has 20 questions about everything. I really think she's going to be a big help with this one. I think Charlie will have some jealous issues. Poor thing really has to fight Abby for my attention. She's very much a mamma's girl and won't let me do anything with Charlie if it doesn't include her being in the middle of it all. The worst of it all is that I had sold the rest of my infant stuff a week before we got pregnant. I wasn't sure if we would have another one and was tired of storing all that stuff. So we now have to start over. At least I know now what I really need and what I really won't use that long. We are excited and I'm just glad that I know what to expect both with pregnancy and after. My due date is July 3rd, which is Chaz's birthday. It would be funny to have them share a birthday but if this one is anything like the other two then I have this one the end of June instead of July. We'll see. Anyway I've had 2 sonograms and both look great. We should know what if it's a boy or a girl sometime after the holidays. My doctor does sonograms a lot so I could find out early like I did with Charlie. We knew he was a boy at 12 weeks. But I open to finding out whenever and it's also nice to already have a boy and a girl. This time we really don't care what it is. But I do think it would be fun to have another girl. I really do miss all those little girl things. Abby is starting to grow out of some of that. Of course Charlie would love to have a brother and they will be closer in age. But trust that God has the perfect child for us. We're excited and I guess somewhat ready to go through this journey again. God has never let us down so I know he is with us now too.

Beach Trip 2009

2009-06-22T12:03:00.000-07:00

Last week we spent the week at Port Aransas. It was so much fun and the kids had a blast. This was our first trip to the beach with the kids so we really didn't know how they would react to it but even though they really didn't get in the water much they loved playing in the sand. We also had lots of fun playing with all the aunts, uncles and cousins that were there. My dad's side of the family have been going to the beach every year together for as long as I remember and being there with my kids brought back so many memories of my brother, sisters and I playing with our cousins there. It was hard being back there without Michael there and I also missed my sister, Cayce, who is in the US Coast Guard and couldn't come but her son was there and it was great watching him play in the sand with my kids. We also had my dad's wedding there. It was beautiful with the water in the background. We had around 70 people there. It was great seeing people that I haven't seen in a long time. Chaz and I can't wait to take the kids next summer and hope to continue the tradition of the kids spending there summer vacation in Port A. Great trip!!!

Hair

2009-05-11T18:32:00.001-07:00

Ok so most of you are aware that my kids have a lot of hair. Charlie really needs a hair cut but I can seem to do it. He's had several haircuts but I love his hair a little long. He has the cutest curls and I love running my hands through it. Chaz keeps telling me that he's going to go buzz it off if I don't cut it soon. I'm so afraid that I'll cut all the curl out of his hair. That happen to Abby. She used to have a curl on the tips of her hair and I messed it up by cutting her hair. But after this last weekend I'm starting to realize how long his hair really is. I think I may need to take him to the barber. My poor little man. I know one day he'll come home and I'll be giving him a hard time about his messy hair but for now I think it's adorable.

Easter!

2009-04-14T15:14:00.000-07:00

We had a great day on Sunday. The kids had a lot of fun hunting easter eggs and I had a good time eating the candy.

Abby's painting job

2009-03-09T13:35:00.000-07:00

For awhile I've been wanting to paint the playroom. We spent so much time up there and I was tired of staring at white walls so Friday I decided that I was finally going to do it. So after I put the kids down for a nap I went to work. I decided that I might as well paint the bookshelves too while I was at it. Because they are so heavy I couldn't carry them downstairs so I thought the back patio would be perfect so I drug them out there and started priming them. I worked a good hour and a half before the kids woke up which stopped me being able to work out side so I decided while they were playing in the playroom I would get started on that. I had put the blue paint, the new wall color for the playroom, on the back porch to keep the kids out of it. Everything was going pretty good. Abby was asking tons of questions about what I was doing but pretty much staying out of the way. After a couple of minutes I noticed it was a little quiet, then I heard a door shut. My first reaction was oh no, Abby went out the front door. So I ran down stairs and looked at the front lawn, didn't see her tried the back door, no Abby. Then it hit me, she's up stairs on the back porch. I ran as fast as I could and found her sitting on a paint can painting the house blue. She not only did that but painted my bookshelves too. There was paint everywhere, all over the balcony, her and the house. She seemed to be so pleased with herself at the painting job she had done. Meanwhile, I was in shock. I couldn't believe what a mess she created in just a couple of minutes. Anyway, I won't get into the details of what happened next. Just know that she was in time out for about 30 minutes till Chaz got home and could deal with her who was covered in paint. I still haven't cleaned up outside, so here's a picture of her painting job to enjoy.

Counting my blessings!

2009-03-02T11:24:00.000-08:00

This morning I went to a funeral for a baby that lived only 13 days. It was heartbreaking to watch the parents have to say good-bye to their sweet baby boy. I can't imagine that feeling. I don't think I could ever get over something like that but then again I'm sure no one thinks they would, yet they do. Losing a child, especially a baby has to be the hardest thing a person could ever do. I pray I never have to know what that feels like. I do however know what it feels like to lose a brother but that could never compare to what a parent goes through losing a child. I look at Abby's and Charlie's sweet faces and today, especially thank God that He chose for them to live healthy, happy lives. It's hard not to question why God chooses some over others to live but I do know that He is a fair and a just God. As a pediatric nurse, I see very sick children. Some who have never talked, eaten food by mouth, or looked into their parent's face and yet God choose these children to live. I think that sometimes He chooses others to go be with him to spare them from pain they would have here. I know Michael was not living a healthy, happy life and God saved him from that. I now thank God for sparing Michael anymore pain. That's a blessing to me!! I pray that someday these parents will find blessings in all this. That maybe their child was spared a lifetime of pain and suffering. He's in a place that is free from all this. It makes me so thankful for all the things that He has blessed me with. My children are such a gift and at times I forget that. Between potty training, breaking up fights and just trying to get things done around the house, today I was forced to stop all those things and remember how precious life is and how precious my children are. I don't deserve them and yet God gave them to me. I will promise the parent's of this sweet baby that I will remember the blessing that Cash was and the reminder that God giveth and He taketh away. I pray that God showers this sweet family with comfort and peace and may this remind all of us that this life is so short and we must not waste any moment. Hold your children today and show them how much of a blessing they really are.

Girl's Night Out

2009-02-23T08:55:00.000-08:00

Abby and I went out on a date Friday night just the two of us. We were celebrating her wearing big girl panties. Even though were still having some accidents, she is doing great. So we went out to celebrate by going to dinner and to paint some pottery. We had so much fun together and it reminded me that I need to spend more time with Abby by herself than I do. Plus I'd forgotten how much easier it is to get out with only one kid. I loved watching her get into the painting of her rabbit. I painted a plate that we put Abby's hand on. She placed her hand down a little weird which is why it looks funny but I still love it. I love doing creative things and wished I had more time to do it. I think I'm going to take the kids back and do some things for the grandmothers. Anyway we will be doing it again. Abby really needs quality time with me and I need to give her that. I know I need it too.

Valentine's Party

2009-02-12T17:12:00.000-08:00

Wed. we went to our annual Valentine party with some of our dear friends. The same group gets together for everything. It was so much fun watching the kids decorate their cookies and make their cards. This year the little ones got to be in on some of the fun too. Charlie couldn't wait to dig into his cookie and got it everywhere. Abby really concentrated on her cookie and they looked pretty tasty. Next year it will be really interesting with all the little ones really into everything along with the older ones. Should be fun!! Happy Valentine's Day!

Ski Trip 2008

2008-12-28T13:43:00.000-08:00

Well we survived our first trip as a family of four to Taos, New Mexico. We left last Sunday morning at 5:00 am and got back at 11:00 pm last night. It was a long week but loads of fun. Both kids did so much better in the car than I thought they would. I don't know what I would do without our DVD player but I think I have hours of Blues Clues and Dora memorized. It was a 12 hour drive and the kids slept a total of 45 min in the car. As many of you know my kids are not sleepers and this trip was certainly no exception. Charlie slept a total of 3-4 hours a night and would only take a small hour nap during the day. That didn't seem to slow him down though. Abby did better and would slept around 7 hours a night. Despite not sleeping the whole week we did have a lot of fun. It snowed the whole time we were there. My car ended up getting stuck in about 5 feet of snow and took hours to get out. The skiing was great! I've never seen so much snow! It was a winter wonderland for sure. Abby was so excited about skiing. I wasn't going to bother putting her in ski school because I just knew she would freak out as soon as they put on those heavy boots but she proved me wrong. She was a natural and loved it. Who knew that my little girl who is so afraid of everything would love skiing. We couldn't get her off the mountain. Charlie also loved the snow. He looked hilarious with all his snow gear on. He was all over the place and worn all of us out. We went with Chaz's whole family and stayed in his family's cabin they've had for over 40 years in Tres Ritos. It's so cute and opening presents on Christmas morning in the moutains, with all the snow was priceless. We all had a great time but glad to be home and back to 70 degree weather. Merry Christmas to everyone and happy New Year. May yours be a blessed one.

Happy Birthday, Abby!!

2008-12-14T12:12:00.001-08:00

Abby riding her new bike.

Chaz and me dressed for his work holiday party.

Abby right after she got her bike.

Monica and sweet Annie. Could be one of Charlie future girlfriends. No pressure but she is cute.

My dear friend, Stacey and her two precious girls.

Sweet little Andrew, always happy.

Emma and Addie enjoying their lunch.

My precious little princess. Happy birthday, Abby!!

I can't believe my little Abby is 3 years old! She's growing up too fast. We had her princess party on Friday and it was crazy but fun. All her little friends were there to celebrate and Abby was so excited. Chaz and I got her a bike which she loved and still can't stop thanking us for it. It's so sweet when out of no where she comes over and says thank you so much for her beautiful bike. I did make her cake this year too which I'm not sure I will do again. By the pictures you can tell that's it's a castle cake and it took forever to make. I didn't even want to eat it because I was so sick of looking at it. Abby loved it which I was glad. The party went better than I thought. I knew it was going to be crazy with so many little girls and several little ones Charlie age but it went pretty smooth. I was so tired afterwards but glad that Abby was so happy. Right after her party Chaz and I had to get ready for his office party. That was fun too and it was fun to get all dressed up since I never get too. We got a hotel room for that night which was great. I was disappointed when we found out that they were out of king beds but it was kind of nice having my own bed all to myself. I went up by myself and went to bed by 10:30. Chaz stayed and hung out with friends. I actually loved the quiet time to myself. We then slept in and went to breakfast before going home. We hadn't had that much time to ourselves in a long time. It was so nice just being together. But I was ready to go home and see the kiddos too. I want to post more about Abby and her birthday later but here are some pics from her party. Lots of princesses and pink. Happy Birthday my little princess!!

A week I'd rather forget!

2008-11-22T18:43:00.000-08:00

I usually don't like posting negative stuff but this last week was worth writing about even though I'd rather never remember it again. It all started with Charlie not sleeping for 3 nights and not taking much of a nap either. He never ran fever and didn't show a lot of signs of being sick so I just thought that he was teething. Finally on Wed. I decided to take the poor baby to the doctor who then did a test that revealed that Charlie had strep throat. Oh joy! I felt so guilty for not taking him in sooner and then realized that Abby was probably going to get it too. At least I was a little more prepared for her to have it. So off we go home with meds and praying for sleep. Wed. was a my brother's birthday, which was hard but I was so busy with kids that I didn't have much time to think about it. Which I guess was good but today it all hit me and I've been depressed all day. I think the stress of the week had finally caught up to me. I was so tired by Thurs. that I almost fell asleep driving home from church. It only got worse Thurs. night when I was trying to get Abby to come down the stairs when she started to throw a fit. I was holding on to her and so when she did this I started to fall. I did catch myself by not with much grace. I felt my toe, the one next to the smallest one, bend back and pop. I knew that it was broken. Of coarse Friday Abby came down with fever and is now also on meds for strep. Chaz and I haven't gonen it yet but my luck it will on Thanksgiving. Meanwhile I've got my toe wrapped and bracing myself for the Turkey trot. I'm not going to let a small stupid toe stop me from running. I love running the Turkey trot on Thanksgiving and haven't ran it in years because I was either pregnant or just had a baby. So this year nothing is going to stop me. I know this week has to be better than this last one. We're hoping to go see my dad tomorrow so I pray that goes ok. The kids are doing better today and hope we are past everything. Hope everyone has a great Thanksgiving and I promise my next post won't be so negative.

Happy Halloween!

2008-11-01T09:44:00.000-07:00

All the sweet babies.

Lots of princesses this year.

My little shark.

My little mermaid.

We had a great time at our annual Halloween party at the Ridgell's. Chaz went as a cast away, I went as a pirate, Abby was a mermaid and Charlie was the cutest shark. Hope everyone had a fun holiday and didn't eat too much candy. There's also some pics from the pumpkin patch we went to last week. I finally was able to get some good pictures of the kids there.

High School Reunion

2008-10-17T13:26:00.000-07:00

This last weekend we made to big trip to Abilene for my 10 year reunion. It was so much fun! It was great seeing people that I haven't seen since graduation. So many haven't changed and others are completely different. It so funny to now talk about our kids. Chaz and the kids went with me to Abilene but Chaz went to the ACU football game instead of going to the reunion with me, which worked out great. I was able to go with one of my long-time friends, Stacey, and we had a blast. We also had fun staying my aunt and uncle who have been like parents to me. They have lots of different kinds of animals so the kids had a blast playing with them. Charlie just chased the turkey around the whole time. It was hilarious! That poor turkey didn't know what to do. Anyway it was a lot of fun and enjoyed seeing everyone. Can't wait till the next time we all get together.

Fun times at the pumkin patch!

2008-10-07T12:15:00.000-07:00

Sunday we met with some other young families at a pumpkin patch. The kids had a blast, especially Charlie because he got to run free. Abby really enjoyed playing and chasing all her little friends around. They had a hay ride, corn maze and lots of fun stuff for the kids. It was a lot of fun despite all the wonderful Texas wind! Here are some pictures.

Happy Birthday Charlie!!

2008-09-08T11:40:00.000-07:00

I can't believe my baby boy is now a one year old. We had his party yesterday to celebrate and it was only fitting to have a Dallas Cowboy themed party since I found out I was pregnant with him right after a cowboy game last year. He is destined to be a Dallas Cowboy fan for life. We had a good party with friends and family. Then watched the cowboys play. It was a good day. Abby was so sweet and helped Charlie with all his presents but now thinks they were all for her. Luckily Charlie doesn't know the difference yet. I'm sitting here thanking God for how blessed I am to have two beautiful, healthy children. Being a pediatric nurse and taking care of very sick kids, I know how blessed I am that mine don't have any problems. Today is one of my long-time patient's b-day. He is three and lives with a brain condition that could cause him to die at anytime. As a mother, I just don't think I could deal with that. I know first hand that God gives us the strength to get through things but having a sick child or worse knowing that everyday is truly a gift because you could lose them at any moment is just too much for me. I don't mean to sound so negative when I'm writing about my son's party. I just know how truly blessed I am to have my two kiddos. They are God's gift to me and I hope I never forget how blessed I am to have them and be their mother. I thank you God for not only giving my children healthy bodies but thank you for using them to remind me how much you love me by making me their mother. And I pray for all the mothers out there who have sick kids or have lost a child. God is with you and has his arms around you and your child. God Bless and hug those little ones. They grow up too fast.

Happy Birthday to me!!

2008-08-20T16:19:00.000-07:00

One more year of being in my twenties then I hit the big 30! I can't believe I'm 29 years old. I know that's not old but I do have to say that I'm starting to feel my age. I guess I feel like that because Chaz and I just started Marine Fitness Boot camp and I'm so sore that some days I can't even put on my underwear by myself. It's really making me feel all the aches and pains of getting older. I did have a pretty good day despite getting pulled over for speeding on my birthday on my way to boot camp at 5:30 am. I did manage to get out of it but that it wasn't the way I wanted to start off my 29 birthday. I went to work then Chaz and the kids took my out to dinner at one of my favorite places, Cheese Cake Factory. It was a good day and I'm even more excited about my birthday gift. I asked for a wii fit. They are really hard to get right now so I don't have one yet but Chaz is working on it and hope to have it soon. I figured he shouldn't be the only one having all the fun with the wii. Anyway, things are going good. I wish the rain would stop. Chaz and I put up the kids' swing set on Sat. and they haven't been able to enjoy it since it's rained for 3 days straight. Well, I included some pics of my birthday and of the new swing set or what I like to call, the thing that is going to wear my 2 year out.

Happy Anniversary to us!!

2008-08-15T06:44:00.000-07:00

I can't believe that Chaz and I have been together 7 years now. August 11, 2001 feels like yesterday. We had a beautiful wedding at Chapel on the Hill at ACU. ACU will always be very special to us because that's where we meet, fell in love, where Chaz proposed to me and where we got married. I loved everything about our wedding except it was the hottest day in history. I remember sweat pouring down my back as we said our vows and then we thought it would be good to ride in the back of an old Ford car after the wedding. I was so hot that I remember my dress being stuck to me. Chaz had to pull it off. But it was a beautiful wedding. Our story of how Chaz proposed is so sweet. I do have to say he put a lot of thought into it and it's one of my top favorite moments. It all started when we were seated across from one another in Biology class. After a couple of days, Chaz started up a conversation. He was very sweet and asked to share my book since he had left his at home. I, of course, said yes. After a week or so of talking in class, he asked me to a social event for his fraternity. We then fell in love and when Chaz proposed 2 years later, he took me back to where it all started. He blind folded me and led me to the classroom where we had met. He sat me down in the same chair that he sat in and put me into my old seat. He read a poem that he had written then got down on one knee and popped the question. After I said yes, he then confessed that when he asked to borrow my book, two years earlier, that he had is the whole time. He just wanted a reason to be close to me. HOW SWEET IS THAT!! That my favorite story of the two of us. Chaz, I love you so very much. You have blessed my life in so many ways and continue to sweep my off me feet. I look forward to celebrating many more anniversaries together. I love you and thank you for making my life feel so special.

Ranch weekend and Charlie walking

2008-07-18T14:18:00.000-07:00

I can't believe my sweet baby boy is walking at 10 months old. For some kids this maybe a normal time to start walking but I was use to Abby who at 10 months was just starting to crawl and didn't start walking till 15 months. I guess the saying is true, very kid is different. It's so fun to watch him. He is so excited and we all cheer him on. I also can't believe that I have to start thinking about his birthday soon. Man, has this last year flown by.
On another note, we had such a good time at the ranch with my family. It was a great time to get together and remember Michael. Every time I was out on the four wheeler, all I could think about was how much he would of loved it out here. We also celebrated my sister Cayce's birthday. Her birthday isn't till next month, a day before mine, but she is leaving for boot camp the first of August. Yes you read it right my sister Cayce is joining the US Coast Guard. I couldn't be more proud. She is having to leave her son, who is Charlie's age, for 2 months. She is stronger than me. I couldn't do it. She knows this will better her family and that God has lead her to do this. Please pray that she has the mental and physical strength to get through it. We had so much fun watching her son, Isaac and Charlie play together. Abby also enjoyed having to boys to boss around. She was really sweet and made sure both were feed. I have to watch her closely when she's eating something because she gives Charlie a bit. I caught her giving him peanuts the other day. At least we know he isn't allergic to peanuts now. It's sweet that she shares and it's hard to tell her that she has to share some things but not others. Some how I'm sure Charlie will survive. At least now he can walk away from her.

Michael

2008-07-06T16:50:00.000-07:00

This Thurs., the 10th, it will have been a year since Michael took his life. The pain is still so fresh but I know he is at peace and finally happy. I'm so blessed to have had him in my life for 26 years and can't wait to see him again in Heaven. Michael, you will always have a special place in my heart and my love for you is still so very strong. I promise to never forget all the wonderful memories we had together and all the fun we had as kids. You lived through so very much and I've learned so much from you and your life. I'm just so sad that my kids won't know their Uncle Michael until they too see you in heaven. God is so good and I know that you are with him. I love you and miss you. My life will never be the same without you here.

Hello!

2008-07-01T10:22:00.000-07:00

I know it's been forever since I've updated but these two little ones keep me running. Things have been going good. We're potty training Abby which is a day to day challenge. Some days she's great and others I just give up and put her in a pull up. Charlie took his first steps last week. He laughed the whole time. He was so excited and we were so proud. Abby cheered him on the whole time. I was glad that Chaz was home and we were able to get it on tape. I can't believe he will be 10 months old on Thurs. It brakes my heart that I have to start thinking about his one year birthday already. We've been busy going to the pool all summer. I just love our community pool. It's not just a pool but a water park. We just finished swimming lessons with Abby and she did pretty good. She's now jumping in and swimming to the side.
One another note, next week is going to be a hard one. The 10th of July will be a year since Michael died. I've already had some bad days recently and I know next week will be hard. I'm hoping to spend some time with my mom and sisters next week so we can lean on each other. I can't believe that it's been a year already. I can remember every detail of that day. I am starting a support group on the 13th of July. It's for family survivors of suicide and I think it will be good for me. I'm not at all excited about going but I know it's time to deal with it. I miss him so very much but know that he is finally happy and at peace. I just pray he knows how much we miss him and much he was loved. I know that God has His arms around him and that one day I will too. Michael, you are so truly missed!!
I found out some shocking news about my sister, Cayce. She joined the US Coast Guard and starts boot camp in August. I can't believe she is really doing it. I'm also so very proud of her. She has a lot of strength to leave her 10 month old son and go to this. She feels that God has showed her that this is to better her and her family. I just pray that He continues to give her strength and protection. Anyway that's it for now.

update

2008-05-05T08:53:00.001-07:00

I've been so busy with the house that I haven't blogged in awhile. So here is a quick up date. Charlie is now crawling everywhere. I can't believe it! He turned 8 months old on Sat. I can already tell that he isn't going to let anyone tell him that he's too small or too young to do anything. He already wants to do big boy stuff. Abby was slow to do everything, which was just fine with me. I loved that she stayed my little baby girl for so long. Charlie is different in every way. I've been working some. I love that I can work whenever I want and make a little extra money. I also love that one of my best friends, Chesley, can watch the kids the days I work. She doesn't live that far and it works out great. Getting them there by 7:00 am is a challenge but here lately Abby's been waking up around 6:30 am anyway, which as been a beating. Charlie sleeps till 7:30 and Abby been getting up before the sun does. Some days I'm up at 6:00 with her. It's hard not to be bitter all day when my day starts that early. It won't be that bad if she took a good nap but she hasn't done that lately either. I don't know what her deal with sleeping is. I can just hope that it's just a phase. Anyway back to better things. Chaz got a promotion at work and is now a Senior Account Executive. I'm so proud of him. Anyway that's it for right now.

My big Girl!

2008-03-09T19:25:00.001-07:00

This last week Abby has taken a big step into wanting to go potty, so off we went to buy the little potty and some big girl panties. I really thought she would be more difficult about the whole process but as she usually does has proven me wrong. She goes almost every time we put her on it and a couple of times she goes all by herself. I really wasn't ready for her to do this. I think I wanted her to remain a little girl a little longer and changing diapers doesn't really bother me. But Abby decided that it was time. We are still in pull ups but I'm sure she will decided that she needs to be out of those too before too long. We also moved her out of her crib and into her big girl bed. Once again, I thought this would be difficult and once again she has proven me wrong. From the very moment we put her in it she has done great. Only getting out one time to come downstairs in the middle of the night and it didn't take much coaching to get her to go back up stairs and into her bed. She just keeps surprising me and I'm just amazed at how wonderful she is. I just don't want her to grow up too fast. She already has told me to leave her alone in her room and shut the door behind me. She's not supposed to do that till she's a teenager! I'm just so proud of the wonderful little girl she is and so blessed to be her mom.

Celebrity Look-a-likes

2008-03-03T14:47:00.001-08:00

http://www.myheritage.com/collage

Happy Valentine's Day!

2008-02-14T14:13:00.004-08:00

We've had a fun day so far. Abby and I are planning to make dinner and cupcakes for dad. She thinks she is such a helper and in some ways she is. For example I had her give Charlie a bottle the other day. It was too cute! Half of it was on him but I'll have her trained soon. Anyway I mainly wanted to post some pics of our Valentine's party. It was a lot of fun, crazy but fun. I remember taking pics of all the little ones last year and they were all still babies. Now they are all so grown up. What fun all these kids are going to have together. I just love that there's so many that are close in age and now all of our round two babies will be as well. We'll see how many make it with round three. You can count me out of that for awhile. Anyway, Happy Valentine's Day!!

Life with two kids

2008-01-31T14:07:00.001-08:00

Well things are finally calming down around here. We're finally not living out of boxes and I even managed to paint Charlie's room. My current project is the kid's playroom. I really wanted to do something fun without making it look cheesy. Finding time to paint is more of a challenge than I thought it would be. As many of you know I'm not a patient person so coming to the realization that it's going to take time to get this house like I have pictured in my head is driving me crazy. I know it will all come together some day but I'm ready for it all to be done. Anyway, speaking of crazy, my two year old is really testing my patience lately. She wines about everything. I know she's a girl but seriously I don't know how we are going to live together when she's a teenager. Today I had to put her down for a nap hours earlier than normal because I couldn't take the winning anymore. Any suggestions on what to do. I've tired everything. On a good note, she has been good about everything else. She is such a great big sister. Her new favorite thing to do is play tea party with Charlie and I think Charlie really likes it too. He will even hold the cup. I can't wait to see them really playing together. It's going to bring back memories of my brother and me playing. We used to have so much fun together. Charlie is doing good too. He's growing so fast and I can't believe he will be 5 months old next week. We all just got well from a bad cold which threw him completely off his schedule of sleeping through the night. Now we are up all night long. I'm hoping that ends soon. I'm also thinking about going back to work soon. I really don't want to but my job is so easy to schedule and is a dream job to have when you have kids that it would be dumb not to go back. I'm so blessed that I would only have to work either one day a week or one weekend a month. It can't get better than that. I also have to say something about my sweet husband. He has been great lately at helping me with the house and the kids. I'm so very blessed to have him. He puts up with a lot from me and takes it so well. We've had some crazy moments the last 7-8 months and he has been so wonderful. Thank you God for placing him in my life!

All I want for Christams is a new house!

2007-12-30T16:41:00.000-08:00

Well we're moved into our new house. We love it and feel so blessed. It's been a crazy month of looking at over 20 houses and putting offer after offer but God knew just what we needed. We love the neighborhood too. There are lots of kids and tons of fun stuff to do. I can't wait till summer and use the water park that's part of our neighborhood. We've already met some of our neighbors and everyone is so nice. I just feel so overwhelmed by how God's placed us in such a safe and perfect home for us. It's amazing what he will do when you hand over control. The kids have also been so great with everything. Abby adjusted faster than I thought she would. She has been so wonderful lately but having a two year old is definitely a patience tester. Some days I wonder where did my sweet little girl go. But she does make me laugh and she is so good with Charlie. The other day I found her reading the Bible to him and then she kissed him gently on the head. It made me tear up. I've always prayed that my kids would have a heart for Jesus and I see that in Abby. I'm so proud of her. Charlie is also such a good baby and the smiliest baby I've ever seen. I've always gotten comments from people that Abby was the smiliest baby but I do think Charlie has her beat. He will just giggle at anything. It's so cute! He is growing up too fast already. I love this age and I wish I didn't know how fast it goes. I'm trying to soak up every once of it before he is running around into everything. I did have to give up one of my furry babies this week. I gave Fletch, the minicher pincher, to my mom. They've been wanting him for awhile and I finally gave in. I just couldn't take care of two kids and two dogs anymore. It's been like having 4 kids in the house. I am sad though. We've had Fletch for 4 years and he was my first baby. He even slept with us. I hope he misses us as much as I miss him. At least I'll get to see him when I go to my mom's. We still have Buck. I think he misses his little buddie too. I'm just waiting for Abby to ask where Fletch is. I've only cried about it a couple of times. I'm such a baby! Hope everyone had a great Christmas and have a blessed New Year. I can't wait to see what 2008 holds for us.

Abby's 2nd Birthday

2007-12-09T18:12:00.000-08:00

My little girl is turning 2 on Thurs. the 13th. We had her Elmo party with Chaz's family this weekend. She loves Elmo and was so excited to see all the Elmo stuff. The cake was adorable. I can't believe she is that old already. She is so unbelievably amazing. I love looking into those big brown eyes and watching her discover new things everyday. Don't get me wrong, she can be very challenging but I just love spending my days with her. She makes me laugh more and more the older she gets. I'm just so blessed to be her mom. Happy Birthday, my sweet angel. May God bless your life as you have blessed mine. I love you!!

Happy Thanksgiving!!

2007-11-24T19:38:00.000-08:00

We had a great thanksgiving. The kids, my sister and I went to my mom's and had a lot of fun together. My other sister, Cayce and my half sister, Kelli with all their kids met us there too. It was a house full. It was also the first time we've had all the kids together. There were a total of 5 under the age of 2. Abby being the oldest, then Kennedi(16 months) and all the boys who are 2.5 months old. We were crazy and decided to take them all for shopping the day after Thanksgiving. All was well until we left all the kids at home with Gran to do some more shopping and all 5 kids were crying at the same time. All in all it was a great thanksgiving. On another note, we made an offer on a house. We are very excited and hoping that this is it. We have to be out of this house by the 21st of December so I better get packing. I will tell more about the house after we know that we got it. Please pray that this is it!

Updates!

2007-11-13T09:48:00.000-08:00

Well life at the Railsback's house is very busy. Over the past 2 weeks I've started keeping my neighbor's little girl who is only 4 weeks older than Charlie. Having two infants in the house with a toddler running around is the craziest thing I've ever done. Some days it's all I can do not to pull all my hair out. I will say that it's getting easier every week. On top of that we decided to sell our house. I know, I know I've completely lost my mind! I don't think I could squeeze one more thing into my life. We haven't started looking at houses yet but plan on staying in the area. We've had our house on the market for one week and already have one offer. I can't believe it's happened so fast. With how bad the market is right now, I had prepared myself to be here another 6 months or so. But it looks like we may be moving very soon. I'm excited about getting into a bigger place and having space for all the toys that have taken over my house. I also can't wait to decorate a new place. I love decorating! I hate moving! I don't know how I'm going to do it. Knowing that Chesley did it with 3 little ones gives me some hope but I know I don't have all the energy she has. Trying to keep my house looking perfect to show has been another challenge. I'm not that messy but I'm not one to make my bed everyday either so this has been a challenge. I'm hoping at the very least it will help me to be a neater person. Well, I have one little one waking up and I'm sure the other 2 are soon to follow. There's never a dull moment.

A Bag of M&M's

2007-11-01T09:42:00.000-07:00

Happy Halloween!!

Charlie at 6 weeks

2007-10-13T18:44:00.000-07:00

Well things are going good. We've nearly through the rough first 6 weeks of little Charlie being here and finally things seem to be getting easier. His reflux comes and goes but at least we know how to handle it this time around. I don't have a lot to report other than my days are filled with feedings and trying to keep Abby out of everything. Charlie was 10.5 pounds at 4 weeks and the doctor couldn't believe he had gained that much weight but I wasn't surprised. Both my kids, like their mother, enjoy eating. Here are some recent pictures of the Railsback kids.

Just Talking Out Loud

2007-09-28T19:17:00.000-07:00

Well since I now spend all my days with two little ones and little adult conversation, I thought I would just let out some things that have been on my mind. For starters, I've really been thinking a lot about my brother, Michael. I miss him so very much and so sad that he won't know my kids. He would of been such a great uncle. He's always loved kids and really dreamed of having a family. I'm so sad that he never got to experience the joy of holding his own little one. He's been showing up a lot in my dreams and sometimes my mom and I have the same dream about him. I feel like God is letting him say hi to us. I pray that I never stop having those dreams even though I wake up in the morning really missing him and a little sad that it was only a dream. Michael was the type to make sure everyone was ok. It doesn't surprise me that he is trying to tell me that he is in a good place. Anyway on to other things. I hate to complain because I know that there are so many other people out there far worse than me but this week was really stressful. I got a breast infection on one side then two days later got it on the other. It's so hard to be patient and loving to both kids when you're exhausted but even worse when you feel like you have the worse flu of your life. To top it off, Charlie does have reflux. We weren't sure for a couple of weeks because he doesn't spit up much but after this week I finally talked to the doctor about it and he confirmed that it was indeed reflux. Instead of spitting up, acid just sits in the back of his throat so he screams every time I try to feed him. The last couple of days I've been feeding him in a different position which is helping but very uncomfortable and I don't know how I will feed him this way anywhere else but home. And the little fart won't take a bottle so I'm stuck at home. On the other hand, Abby's been a real trooper. Poor thing she watches TV from the time she gets up till she goes to bed. I guess I'm lucky that she will do that. We did go get her birthday present early and went ahead and gave it to her. It's a kitchen and she loves it. We have more fun playing with it with her. She's also such a little mommy. She really tries to comfort Charlie when he's crying. Anyway, I'll stop complaining. I'm hoping to feel better over the weekend so I can get out of this house. I do need to take more pics of the little ones and will post some soon. And I saved the best for last, my sister, Cayce, had her baby boy yesterday and baby and mom are doing great. He is beautiful, of course and I can't wait to meet my new nephew. I'm glad that him and Charlie will be close in age.

Abby and Charlie

2007-09-14T18:33:00.001-07:00

Well the first meeting of Abby and Charlie went fairly well. The look on Abby's face was priceless when she saw him. She won't touch or hardly look at him at first but by the next day she won't leave him alone. It's been that way ever since. Every time she's sees him, she has to announce it by pointing and saying, "baby" over and over. It was only cute the first couple of days. I've really had to watch her because she already thinks she's helping when she throws a blanket over his face to cover him up. She's constantly running over to the bassinet and shaking it. I've also found her pulling on the blanket he's wrapped up in to try to bring him closer to her. Thank goodness she is so short and can't climb in with him. She is very sweet though. She's always kissing him and giving him little pats on the head. He's going to have to toughen up in a hurry. Other than that, things are going pretty good. Charlie has had his days and nights mixed up but we're working on that. He's been great with feedings and sometimes even goes 4 hours in between. At first we thought that he might have some reflux, like Abby, but that seems to be getting better. We know enough tricks to fix that. I'd forgotten how hard it is to get up and down all night long. It really gives your body a beating after awhile. I do think it's easier this time around because I know it won't last forever. Chaz goes back to work next week and I think I may cry that whole day. He's been such a great help and encourages me all day. Abby and him have spent so much time together lately and I know that she's really going to miss that during the day. I hope things go well. Chaz has left me a couple of times to go do things and everything seemed to fall apart while he was gone. But I'm feeling better about things. I just have to make it till he gets home. Thank goodness for Seame Street to keep Abby happy for one hour! It's the other 8 hours that worry me.

Charles Kilmer Railsback

2007-09-06T07:19:00.000-07:00

Well, Charlie is finally here! The story goes, Monday Chaz and I went to the hospital to be induced. We got there and I fully expected to be at least a 3 cm of dilation and that the labor won't be very long. But when the doctor went to check me we discovered that Charlie was now breech and I was completely closed. I don't know what was harder to hear because on Friday he had checked me and I was at a 2.5 and Charlie was head down. Now we were talking about either turning him or doing a c-section. We decided to try turning him and was successful at doing that, which was more painful than I thought it would be. After the doctor broke my water, I started having good strong contractions. At first my labor was very slow and I stayed at a 4 forever, but once I got to a 5 things started happening almost to fast. I went from a 5 to an 8 in 30 min. and then started pushing soon after that. I had 3-4 contractions and Charlie came in 9 mins. The doctor barley had time to set up. Charlie weighed 7.7 pounds and was 20.5 inches long. He is so long a skinny, not like his sister who was short and fat. It was amazing to finally get to see our little man. He is so wonderful and everything I thought he would be. He's a fantastic eater and last night slept great. Chaz and I are both so overcome with gratitude to God for giving us another wonderful blessing. Abby has been at my mom's and we can't wait to introduce them tomorrow. I was sad that my mom and Abby couldn't be here this week but it's turned out to be such a blessing to have this quiet time alone with Charlie before Abby is here to try to steal the show. I'll keep everyone posted on how the first intro. goes. It should be interesting when she discovers that Charlie isn't going anywhere.

100 things about me. I thought I'd join in with everyone else.

2007-08-21T13:13:00.000-07:00

1. I love so so very much any kind of chocolate especially choc. cake with choc. icing. I think vanilla is a waste of time.

2. I don't pray as often as I should and then wonder to often why he doesn't answer my prayers when I think they should be answered.

3. I'm very hard headed.

4. I also have a pretty bad temper.

5. I pray a lot for #4.

6. I like to think my temper has gotten a little better.

7. I wish I never had started coloring my hair. It used to be a reddish, brown color. Now who knows what color it is.

8. I love watching cooking shows.

9. I'm not a great cook but I do my best.

10. I grew up eating hamburger helper and love it still today.

11. Chaz hates and won't let me cook it.

12. I was the oldest of 5 and my house was always crazy.

13. I wish I knew my youngest brother better. There's a 16 year difference and we've never lived close together.

14. I admire my sister Courtni's drive to get her doctrine.

15. I wish I had done better in college. I never really gave it my all until nursing school.

16. I love taking naps. I almost have to take one everyday whether I'm pregnant or not.

17. Some people may call me lazy.

18. I love looking into Abby's eyes. I see a lot of myself in her eyes.

19. I hope Charlie has Abby's big brown eyes. Chaz wants them to be blue like his. I'll take whatever God gives me.

20. I love sports! Playing them and watching them. I especially love football and the Cowboys. I used to play tennis and really miss it.

21. I've never dated anyone my age. All my boyfriends have been at least 2 years older.

22. Chaz is 2 years older.

23. We met at ACU in Biology class. Chaz sat next to me and one day asked if we could share the biology book because he had forgot his. We starting talking and have been together ever since. He proposed to me in that classroom, in the same chairs we were in when we met. He also told me that night that he had his book with him the whole time. He just wanted a reason to talk to me. What a romantic!

24. I truly feel so very blessed to have married such a good man. No one else could put up with me.

25. I have two kids and really want one more. Chaz may need some convincing.

26. I really don't like being pregnant.

27. The thought of giving birth excites me. I really don't have many worries about it.

28. I do worry about raising 2 kids. It all goes back to the patience and temper thing.

29. I don't like to cuddle.

30. I tried out for the cheer leading team my freshman year. I did a cart wheel, fell and couldn't stop laughing. I didn't make the team but became best friends with the cheerleaders anyway. 3 of them are still my best friends.

31. Those 3 girls and I get together at least once a year for a girl's trip and those are some of my favorite times.

32. I loved going to New York. I wish I was one of those people that had what it takes to live there but I'm to lazy for that place.

33. I hate going to the grocery store.

34. I can't iron at all. I really try and it's really sad.

35. When my mom comes to visit she irons our clothes. She even irons our pillow cases. She says it relaxes her. She's crazy!

36. I don't eat healthy at all. I may go days without eating a vegetable.

37. I also hate milk.

38. Now that I think about it, it's amazing I'm not sick all the time because of my diet.

39. I really struggle with my weight.

40. I was a size 12 when Chaz and I got married. I can't believe I was that big.

41. After our one year anniversary, I lost 40 pounds.

42. Now I love to work out, especially running. I never thought I'd say that.

43. I can't wait for Abby to get old enough for me to ask her if she thinks what I'm wearing looks stupid. I'm always questioning that. It will be nice to have a woman's
opinion. I guess I got to used to having my mom and two sisters to ask.

44. Chaz is a little colored blind so asking him is pointless.

45. I don't like the idea of getting older.

46. My grandmother is 94 years old. I really don't want to live that long.

47. I have very crazy dreams. I usually always remember them too. I can't watch scary movies because I will have very scary dreams afterwards.

48. Chaz loves scary movies and loves when my sister Courtni comes to visit because they stay up late watching them. I'm usually in the bedroom watching a non-scary girly movie by myself.

49. I've always wanted to have blue eyes. I tried to use those colored lenses but my eyes are so dark that you couldn't even tell that I had them in.

50. As I've gotten older, I've grown to really like my brown eyes.

51. I really want to get a boob job after I have all my kids. I want to have them lifted and put back where they should be.

52. The doctors can do whatever they think else I need done while they are working on my girls.

53. I'm having contractions while I'm writing this. I wish I would go into labor tonight but only after I finish the cake I've got in the oven.

54. I might show up at the hospital with the cake.

55. I may or may not share that cake.

56. I'm a terrible speller.

57. I used to love math in school but now I can't seem to remember how to do a lot of math. I guess it's true, if you don't use it you loss it.

58. I love being a nurse. I really think God lead me to it.

59. Things that gross most people out, I find fascinating, like open wounds and surgery.

60. I'm very completely challenged. I don't even know how to text message.

61. I get tired of emailing people. Sometimes I just want to talk on the phone.

62. I still laugh at Seame Street. Abby loves that show and we laugh at it together.

63. Chaz keeps me laughing all the time.

64. When we first met I thought he told me his name was Jazz. I went on our first date thinking that.

65. I'm terrible with remembering names.

66. I always wanted my nickname to be Charlie. So I love that I'm at least going to have a Charlie.

67. I hated having the name Calista growing up. I have gone my whole life having to spell out my name to people.

68. Now I have to spell out my last name too.

69. I still can't believe I'm going to be a mother of two. I don't feel old enough to have 2 kids.

70. Like Ches, I love All My Children. I don't watch it every day but at least 3 times a week.

71. I used to love Days of Our Lives but it gets a little too crazy.

72. I'm watching the Cowboy game right now and their playing terrible. Very disappointing.

73. My first boyfriend in High School was the football star of our school. The coach told me that I had to be nice to Jim during football season or he would fail me. I really didn't like that coach.

74. I can play the piano and clarinet. I can't read sheet music. I had to convert everything to numbers to learn the music and I used to be able to play a song after only hearing it a couple of times.

75. I was in the marching band in High School. We were #1 in our district.

76. At our school it was really cool to be in the band.

77. I played basketball my junior year and was terrible.

78. I was also in the school play and was equally terrible.

79. I finally learned to stick with what I was good at which was tennis.

80. I love to decorate my house. Most of the furniture in our house I've either made or redone.

81. I can't wait to move so I can start over.

82. Maybe that's why I want more kids. So I can decorate another room.

83. I think I ate fries at lunch and at dinner. Man, that can't be good.

84. When I was born I had the cord around my neck three times. The doctor thought I was dead and gave me a shot in my leg. When they did that I kicked and I still have a scar where they gave me that shot.

85. I hate to clean!

86. I don't clean my house as often as I should.

87. Abby likes to take wipes and wipe down the furniture. Even a 20 month knows that if she doesn't do it, it may not get done.

88. I can't believe my little sister, Cayce, is going to be a mom. She's going to be great at it. She's has way more patience than I do and I admire her for that.

89. I can't believe that I turned 28 this month. Not that I think that's very old I just never really could see myself older past 21.

90. I'm not a all up to date on music. I never what band, song or artist is singing.

91. I would be the worst contestant ever on that show The Singing Bee.

92. Chaz would be great! He knows so much useless information. He's also be great at any trivia game. I hate playing with him.

93. I think I've eaten some kind of desert everyday for the last month, sometimes a couple of times a day. Man, I've got to get better at saying no.

94. That reminds me, my cake is done.

95. My toe nails are always painted. They may not look that great but they always have some color on them.

96. I hate going to the dentist. I haven't been in years.

97. I had a lot of work done on my teeth as a kid and that's probably I don't go now.

98. I got my first car when I was 15 and got my first ticket the day before my 16th birthday.

99. My car door fell off and I had to drive while holding it so I wouldn't be late to basketball practice.

100. Another car I had, the whole engine fell out while I was driving. It's amazing I lived through high school.

So that's it. It was easier than I thought. OK now I'm going to try not to go eat that cake. Just say no!!

36 weeks pregnant and little Charlie's room is finally finished!

2007-08-16T13:13:00.000-07:00

Well I finally finished Charlie's room today with lots of help from little Abby. I think it turned out pretty cute. Just what I pictured. Of course I couldn't of done it without lots of help. It just occurred to me that it's not Abby's nursery anymore. I've been so busy with getting things ready for him that I didn't stop to think about how much work I did to make that room Abby's. I loved it all decorated in pink and green. Now it couldn't be any different. It's amazing that we go through so much trouble and the kids don't even remember what their nursery looked like. I guess it's one to the few times we moms get to pick everything out for them before they start having their own opinions. Well I'm so glad it's done and now I can move on to others things, like cleaning this dirty house. Just 10 days till he's here!! I also included at picture of me at 36 weeks and a picture of Abby playing mommy.

Anniversary and Induction date!

2007-08-14T14:02:00.000-07:00

Well it's official I'm being inducted on August 28th. I'm so excited and so ready. I'm also glad that knowing the date allows me to plan better. Chaz's parents are going out of town, more like the country, on the 30th so now they can be here for the birth. I was hoping not to have anything else in August since it's our really busy month but I'm ready to hold this little guy. We also just celebrated our 6th wedding anniversary. I can't believe we've been together for that long. I really feel that we have such a strong and healthy marriage. I'm so very blessed to have such a wonderful man that comes home to me everyday. Chaz has blessed my life more that I could ever express and has been so patient with me through both pregnancies. I know I'm not the easiest person to deal with so he is my calmness and keeps me from completely losing it sometimes. Over the last 6 years we've had a lot happen and he as been so wonderful through it all. I don't think he knew what he was marrying into but has handled it so well. I hope he knows how wonderful I think he is and how great of a husband, friend, and father that I know he is. Honey, I love you and can't wait to spend another 6 years together. Thank you for blessing my life and for being such a wonderful father to Abby and now to Charlie. Happy Anniversary!

The kids' rooms

2007-08-03T13:07:00.000-07:00

Well, Charlie's room is almost done. I still need to get the mattress and the curtain is almost complete. I'm also still looking for western stuff to put on the walls but it's coming along. My mother-in-law did an awesome job on the bedding. I just love it!! Also the bed turned out cute. My mom and I worked so hard to paint it and put it together. It's Chaz's old crib, which makes it 30 years old. I hope it stays together. Abby is now in her big girl room. She's still in her crib but we have the full size bed in there too for her to move to later. I think it turned out super girly, which is what I wanted. Anyway, I'm still feeling pretty good. I go to the doctor next week and we'll know more about what we plan on doing. I don't think Charlie's turned yet, so I'm planning on the doctor still trying to flip him. In the mean while we'll still have to pray that he does flip and stays that way. I'll post more after I go next week.

Showered with Blessings!

2007-07-27T05:52:00.001-07:00

Last night my sweet friends had the best shower for me and little Charlie. The food was wonderful and the company was even better. I feel so very blessed to have such sweet and thoughtful friends to help me celebrate this time with me. After a rough couple of weeks, this shower was something that I really needed. I'm so glad that I have Abby and Charlie to motivate me to keep going and to move on. This shower was perfect timing to help do that too. I was so excited my mom was able to be here and we've had the best week getting things ready for Charlie to be here. I did go to the doctor yesterday and unfortanly he didn't have very good news for me. Charlie is still breech and is looking like he is going to be a big baby like Abby was which means he doesn't have a lot of room to flip. My doctor is going to try to move him in a couple of weeks and we'll wait to see if Charlie stays that way. If he doesn't then we will schedule a c-section. If he does stay head down then we are still going to schedule an induction so it looks like the end of August or very first of Sept. I'm nervous to hear the word c-section. I haven't even thought about that since Abby's delivery went so smoothly and the word c-section wasn't even said. Anyway, at least I have time to prepair for that if it does have to happen. I know I'm in good hands. I'll keep everyone posted as I get closer. Thank you to all my wonderful friends for a very special shower and I can't wait to introduce my little man to all of you.

Michael, my brother and friend

2007-07-13T18:27:00.001-07:00

As many of you know, my sweet brother, Michael went to be with Lord on Tues. He has had a hard life and has experienced so much in just 26 years. He had such a sweet spirit and was one of the most caring person that I've ever known. Growing up we were best friends. Being just 15 months apart, we did everything together including driving our parents crazy. We did everything from catching our bedroom on fire to hiding on the roof of our house. It's amazing we both made it out of childhood. It's those memories that I will fill my heart forever. Michael had many rough times and we knew that everyday was a huge struggle for him. He was a believer and I have no doubt that he is with Jesus now. God saved him so many times and I truly believe that he knew that Michael had enough of the torture he endured and needed Michael to come be with Him in heaven. He is at peace now and will no longer have those struggles. I will forever miss him and can't wait to hold him once again. The funeral went smoothly and he looked good and at peace. Everyone handled it much better than I thought but I know rough times are still ahead. Even though we all knew this was a possibility that he would end it one day, we were still shocked by it. Other than saying good-bye to Michael, the hardest thing was that my dad couldn't be there. TDC denied him being able to go. I know that he was needing that closer. I'm still numb and haven't been able to cry much, which I can't understand. I know it will hit me later because I'm use to going months without talking to him. I still can't believe today was the last time my sisters, Michael and I will all have been together. I know we will all be together again in heaven but I will miss him so very much. Thank you, Michael, for being one of my best friends and understanding me when no one else did. You will always have a place in heart and I will forever remember your beautiful smile. You were always the first to hug me and at times I had to push you away but now I wish I could hold you forever. Please know how much I love you and how special you were to me. I understand why you did what you did. I will never be mad at you for that. Just know that you will never be forgotten and I will love you forever.

Happy 30th Birthday, Chaz!

2007-07-06T15:01:00.000-07:00

July 3rd was Chaz's birthday and it was a great one. Thank you all for coming to his party and helping us celebrate. It was a great party and since his birthday has always fallen the day before the 4th of July, he hasn't really had a party on his actual birthday. So I'm so glad we got to do that this year and so many people were able to come. It was also wonderful getting to visit with all our friends without chasing kids at the same time. It's been years since we've been together as a group without our little ones. We need to do that more often. I love our kids but it's nice to get to really have an adult conversation. Anyway, I'm glad that Chaz had a good time and that everything worked out great. I'm 31 weeks now and starting to feel more and more uncomfortable. I've also started having some contractions. I've been to the doctor a lot lately and thankfully I'm not dilating or thinning out yet. I guess my body is just getting ready for things to come. Even with that, I still feel better this time around. I had preclamsia with Abby and so far I'm not showing too many signs of that yet. I've also tired to stay more active this time and I think that's helped too. Abby is doing better with sleeping. She isn't waking up as much as she was. She has how even been showing signs that she is getting closer to turning 2. I love that little girl but sometimes I think she is trying her hardest to sent me to the nut house. I can't believe that I'm having another one while she is going through her trouble 2's. So if you see me in the next couple of months and I have this crazy look in my eye just know that it's because I've actually gone crazy and will be back to my normal self in about 18 years. Even with all that I can't wait for Charlie to be here. I look forward to watching the kids play and grow up together. I'm glad Abby will have someone to play with. I also can't wait to see what my little man looks like. I guess I don't have to wait much longer.

Week 28

2007-06-16T11:03:00.000-07:00

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So I can't believe that I'm 28 weeks now and only have 10-12 weeks left. I've been feeling pretty good, just tired and having lots of heartburn. We did a 3-D sonogram on Friday and unfortatunly Charlie had his sweet hands in front of his face so we weren't able to get many good pics. We're going back next Friday to try again. He has also been breech everytime we've seen him. We're really hoping he turns soon before he runs out of room. All in all it was wonderful seeing my little man. The part of his face we could see looked like Abby. He has her cubby checks and full lips. We couldn't see any hair yet so he may not have as much as Abby did. He has been moving around so much and keeps me up all night. Abby never did that when I was pregnant. Abby has been so much fun lately. She's learning a new word everyday and can now count to 3. It's been fun watching her learn. She is also very into babies so I hope she will be into baby Charlie too. I'm thinking about getting her a new baby doll that looks real for when Charlie comes home. I'm hoping that will make it easier for her since she will have her own baby to hold. I am starting to get nervous about delivering him. I guess since I remember how hard the recover is and now I will have a 21 month old running around too. I'll be calling all you moms of two asking how you keep from crying all day long.

On another note, We've had a great Father's Day. Since it's been raining for what feels like months, we've just been relaxing inside. I just want to say that I'm married to the sweetest man on earth. He has been so patience and wonderful through all my recent hormonal episodes. I'm so very blessed by him and all the wonderful things he does. I love watching him with Abby. She really does adore her dad. Thanks Chaz for being so wonderful! Happy Father's Day.

Remember the Alamo!!

2007-05-21T16:43:00.000-07:00

Chaz and I went on the best trip to San Antonio this last weekend. We left Abby with my mom and it was the first time in awhile that we've been alone. The weather was perfect and we walked the river walk all day Saturday. Friday night we went to this very fancy restantant and I had the best steak that I've ever had. We of course went to see the Alamo which we didn't realize was right behind our hotel. It was the best vacation that we've had in a long time. I can't wait to do it again. I really do miss Abby way more than I thought I would. I can't wait to see her on Wed. when I go to my mom's. I'm staying till Saturday for my little sister's graduation. Then I'm finally home for awhile. Three weekends in a row out of town is so exhautating. I can't wait to get things back to normal.

Mother's Day trip

2007-05-15T12:55:00.000-07:00

So I had the best mother's day trip with 3 amazing women. My two sisters-in-law and my mother-in-law all went to Salado, Tx for the weekend. We stayed this wonderful bed and breakfast and shopped the whole weekend. They have the cutest shops there. Saturday night we took a carriage ride to 6 art galleries. I"m ashamed to admit that I've never really been into art but it was fun learning all about the different styles. My mother-in-law is a very talented artist and really got into it all. The weather was great and we just had the best time. I really missed Abby. She has been so much fun lately so I couldn't wait to get home to her and Chaz. I can't wait to do it again next year!! Happy Mother's Day!!

21 weeks and counting

2007-04-28T18:49:00.000-07:00

I know it's been a long time since I've blogged but we've been without Internet for 3 weeks. It felt like a lifetime! Anyway, things have been crazy around here. Abby went through a long period of being sick, our neighborhood was hit by a tornado and we've been moving furniture around to make room for the Charlie. My house is a wreck but on the upside I'm feeling good. I'm starting my 21st week and now feeling a little stressed to get everything done. I really want to enjoy this summer with Abby and not have to worry about decorating. I've really been having fun decorating Abby's new room. I haven't done much yet but know what I want it to look like. I also know that I'm doing Charlie's room in western cowboy. I do have to say that decorating Abby's room is a little more fun. I guess because it's a girly room. Anyway, we fixed the fence last week. We are very lucky it was only our fence. There was a lot of roof damage done to other houses. God was really watching over us. I think Abby is finally over being sick. I hesitate to say that because I just had to give her Motrin so she would go to sleep. We did our 20 week sonogram this week and everything looked great. It's still a boy, Chaz was nervous that something may had fallen off, but it didn't. He is right on track. He is moving around like crazy which I didn't experience with Abby. He is already so different than Abby. Lately I've been counting my blessing about how much God has blessed me with a healthy pregnancy and a healthy baby. Too many of our friends haven't been so lucky. It's especially been hard since I work with terminally sick children and things at work have been bad. We had a nurse abuse two foster children that I have has patients. It's been an terrible situation. On the other side, my other patient is finally out of the hospital and doing good. We did find out that his brain is falling out of the back of his head but after they do surgery, it should cure many of his other health issues. Sorry I was all over the place. I promise to do better at updating now that I can.

IT'S A BOY!!!!!

2007-03-23T14:29:00.000-07:00

16 weeks

We are pleased to announce that Abby is going to have a baby brother. We found out today and there was no doubt that it's a boy. Chaz is just beside himself and I don't think he has stopped smiling yet. We are going to name him Charles Kilmer Railsback and propably call him Charlie. I'm so excited that I can start buying blue things, infact I already stopped to pick up a few. Of course Abby is happy because we are. She has no idea what's instore for her. My brother was only 15 months younger than me and we had so much fun together. We drove our parents crazy but he was my best friend growing up and I pray these two will be also. I'm just so overwhelmed by God's grace and blessings. I'm so undeserving but so grateful. Life sure will be different around here but I can't wait!!

Abby's million dollar smile or should I say $1000 smile

2007-03-21T18:58:00.000-07:00

Well many of you know that Abby chipped her tooth last week. As you can see in the picture, it's pretty bad. We are going to have to fix it and it's going to cost us a small fortune. It just brakes my heart. I know she is still my beautiful little girl but I really miss her smile. Chaz keeps calling her chip and I yell at him everything. I just don't think it's funny yet. I'm sure someday I will. Anyway, she is doing good. We are finally all feeling better and I go to the doctor Friday for my 16 week appt. I'm still having some morning sickness which is really night sickness but learning to manage it. I'm having to work extra days at work to pay for Abby tooth. Ah, the things we do for our kids. Hope everyone is doing good and staying well. I'll let everyone know how the appt. goes on Friday.

My little sister got hitched!

2007-03-12T11:29:00.000-07:00

Well we made it through the crazy wedding. Everything turned out great for Cayce. I hope it was the wedding she wanted. Anyway, there were a few stressful moment which is to be expected when you plan a wedding as fast as we did but it was nice. Cayce looked beautiful and when I get some pics I'll post some. Abby did so great during the whole thing. She didn't get a chance to take a nap for two days and you wouldn've known the diffterence. She did cry when she saw me walk down the aile and realize I couldn't hold her, I was the maid of honor. But she did great! It was also wonderful seeing so much of the family that I haven't seen a long time. I was glad Abby got to meet some people see has never seen before. It was a long weekend and I'm so glad it's over. My other sister, Courtni, is not allowed to get married for a least 5 years. Well, back to me. I'm 14 weeks and still having some morning sickness. Every week I think it's gone then I have a really sicky day but it is getting better. I've been feeling the little one move around some now and it brings a smile everytime. I'm trying to enjoy it now while it's not uncomfortable yet. I know there will come a day when I will be begging the little one to be still so I can get some sleep. But right now I'm really enjoying it. We go to our next appt. on the 30th and we're hoping to do a sono to see if we can tell what the baby is. The last one we could slightly tell but want to make sure before we start telling everyone. I don't have a sono appt. the lady said that she would try to get me in. So if we don't say anything then we didn't do a sono and we'll do one in April at 20 weeks. Untill then a pray that everyone is doing well and I'll post some pics soon. I haven't been good at taking much lately.

Feeling Very Pregnant!

2007-02-12T14:01:00.000-08:00

Well I'm starting my 11th week now and so far things are rolling right along. I've been pretty sick but I know it all for a good cause. I've been working 10 hours shifts 2 days a week which hasn't help with the morning sickness but I know that staying home it's going to make it go away. So off to work I go. We've had 2 sonograms and everything looks great. The due date is Sept. 12th. We will have another sono next week and I'm hoping it will look more like a baby instead of an alien. I'm ready to find out what we're having. I just can't wait to decorate the room. We've decided to move Abby into the guest room with the full size bed. If the baby is another girl then we'll leave Abby's old room the same but if it's a boy then Chaz said the strips have to go, which makes me sad. My mom and I worked so hard to paint those strips but oh well. I'm excited about doing Abby another room. It's all I can do not to decorate it now but I'm going to wait awhile. She is still to young to move into a big girl bed. We'll probably wait till she's 18 months. That will give us 2 months for her to get used to it before the baby comes. I'm sure I'll be hitting some of you moms about the best way to do that. Well, I'll try to scan the sono pic. next week and everyone can see the new Railsback addition.

Abby's Going to Be a Big Sister!!

2007-01-14T13:15:00.000-08:00

Well we are happy to announce that we are expecting baby number two! We are 6 weeks along and the due date is September 12th. The kids will be 20 months apart which I feel is great. We have been talking about trying this summer but God had other plans and aparently all it takes is us talking about it. I'm feeling great but know the rough stuff is coming soon. I hope to work untill it comes but we'll see. I'm already getting tired after chasing Abby all day. But I feel so blessed! I always wanted my children to be close in age. My brother and I were so close growing up and it was great! I hope this two get along and I know Abby will make a great big sis! Anyway I couldn't wait to tell everyone!! I've known for 2 weeks and it's been so hard not to tell you all.

Abby's first hair cut!

2007-01-10T18:33:00.000-08:00

Abby had her first hair cut which was way over due. Her hair has been so long and in her face. Poor baby! But we finally did something about it and she loved it. She laughed the whole time. I think that this means she will be a high maintance little girl who likes to get pampered. Dad better start saving money now for those trips to the salon!

Merry Christmas!!

2007-01-10T18:23:00.000-08:00

Well Christmas came and went in a flash! I can't believe it is already 2007. So much to be thankful for! We had a wonderful, relaxing day at home on christmas day. I think I stayed in my pjs the whole day. You can't beat that! Santa brought Abby a bouncy horse which at first she wasn't sure about but now loves. Chaz and I did stockings which had way too much chocolate in them. Santa wants us to be fat this next year! Anyway, we had a great day and can't wait to do it all again next year. Merry Christams!!

Abby's First Birthday

2006-12-11T19:20:00.000-08:00

Well I can't believe my baby girl is turned one on Wednesday the 13th. It's been the best year of my life and as I sit here and relive the first time I held her I can't help but cry. She has been the best thing I've ever done in my life. I never knew I could love someone so very much. She brings so much happiness and joy everyday to Chaz and me. I can remember every moment of giving birth to her as if it was yesterday and yet it feels like it was a century ago. She's not my little baby anymore but I can't wait to watch her discover new things. I love watching her play and figure out how things work. She just amazes me!! God has blessed me more than I deserve. I could never thank Him enough for allowing me to be her mom. I knew that I would love her but I never knew how blessed. Thank you little girl for being my little angel and allowing me to be your mom. I pray that I will always be here for you and guide you to have a heart for Jesus. I also pray that you will be as blessed as I am and that one day you feel the love of being a parent and how extremely rewarding it truely is. Happy Birthday my little princess and I can't wait to celebrate the next one!!

Things are much better at the Railsback house.

2006-12-01T18:15:00.000-08:00

Well I'm so happy to say that our sweet little Abby is finally back to her old happy self. After almost 3 months of illness we are all relieved to have her back and just in time for her 1st birthday. I can't believe she is almost 1. I told Chaz yesterday that this time last Dec. I couldn't see my feet and now I'm always looking down at Abby cawling all over the place. She has been so happy the last couple of days that we've already forgotten how hard it's been lately. We do go the GI specialist on Friday to talk about what to do next but I feel like the worst is behind us. And we thank God for that. She has been so social lately too and learning something new everyday. I think she was a little behind on some things when she was sick but she sure is catching up fast. It's amazing how well kids can bounce back. I'm also back at work and loving it. I am a bit sad and happy that the little girl that I've had for about 4 months now is no longer needing nursing care. So after the new year I won't have her anymore. I will miss her so much. She is such a good baby and her spirit after all she has been through is truely wonderful. I've really been blessed to have had this time with sweet Farrah. I will miss you and I pray that God continues to heal you and keep you safe. Anyway I will post pics from Abby's party next week. I can't wait. I'm so excited!!

Trick or Treat!

2006-11-07T08:10:00.000-08:00

Well Halloween Abby felt well enough to get dressed up and go to church for some trick or treating. I decided since we missed the Ridgell Halloween party this year that I would wear my costum too. It was fun and we loved seeing all the kids dressed up. Chaz dressed up for work as Wayne from Wayne's world. It was pretty funny but Abby cried everytime she would look at him. Here are some pics. Enjoy!!

Busy Times

2006-11-07T08:00:00.000-08:00

Well as many of you know Abby has been very sick going on 2.5 weeks now. For those who don't know what's going on, here is a quick summery. Abby twice now has vomited for at least 6-7 days and this last time she became very constipated. This made her even more sick and the pain that she had was terrible. We've been to the ER two Sat. nights in a row and both for different reasons. This last one was because she had 104.7 degree temp. They ran a few tests and nothing could tell us much. She is doing better today. We have the Upper GI tomorrow and I hope that will help us figure out what's going on. We are all so very worn out. She is a tropper and still gives us a smile when we need to see it. I'm staying home with her for the next couple of weeks which is making it so very hard to shop for Christmas and her birthday when we don't have my pay check. But I'm so very blessed to be able to stay home with her and work has been so understanding. Please continue to pray that Abby will get better and that God gives Chaz and me the strength to be there for her.

Happy Birthday Bella!

2006-10-12T15:03:00.000-07:00

We had a great time at Bella's party. All the girls were so cute in their tutus. Thanks for a fun party!

Fun times at Gran's

2006-10-12T14:43:00.000-07:00

Abby and I went to my mom's this last weekend and has always had a great time. I was a little sick and it was nice having my mom there to take care of me. I also got to meet my sister Cayce's new boyfriend. She is my youngest sister and now that's she 18 years old it makes me feel way old. Her boyfriend is nice but no one is good enough for either of my beautiful sisters. My brother Cally who is 12 years old makes me laugh. He has never held a baby and watching him try to hold Abby is something very comical. Being the oldest of five children makes it very weird that he has never been around a baby but he is very sweet and Abby loves him. It was wonderful being around all of them again. I've prayed so long for my mom, sisters and brothers to live closer. They have been out of state for too long. We're glad to have them back in Texas. Now we just have to get my dad out. We should know whether he is to be released or spend another 2.5 years in November. He's chances of getting out are 50/50. I really do miss him and so sad that he has missed out on Abby's first year but I know God is in control and He will do what is best. Well, I'm off to the big city of Abilene this weekend to visit my grandmother. We haven't been back in months so I'm ready to go home for a couple of days. Chaz is staying here and holding the fort down with the dogs. We'll catch everyone next weekend. And before I forget GO COWBOYS on Sunday. We have to get this one.

Fun weekend!

2006-09-24T19:01:00.000-07:00

This next pic isn't from this weekend I just wanted to show how Abby is now making this cheesy smile. I don't know why she is doing it but it's funny.

Chaz and his high school friends from Fort Worth Christian with all their kids. What a fun bunch!

We had a good weekend at Chaz's 10 year high school reunion. He is so old! Just kidding honey, you know you will always be 21 to me. Abby did good even though she is teething and didn't get much sleep. She is such a good kid. I can't help but praise God for making me her mother. Anyway I thought I would show some pics of the weekend.

My little girl is growing up!

2006-09-21T21:29:00.000-07:00

Well today Abby crawled for the first time. I was so excited but so sad at the same time. I know her world is fixing to change a great deal but so is mine. I still remember holding her the night she was born and thinking how small is was. Now she is so heavy and is crawling! It makes me want to cry. I was able to capture the event on film so Chaz could see it. He was so excited! My favorite part of the day is being on the floor with Abby and Chaz playing. Now it looks like it will be more like chasing her around. Man they really do grow up fast!

Pics of Abby and outfits that I've made

2006-09-20T21:45:00.000-07:00

I thought I would try to publish some pics. We will see if it works.

I'm so computer challenged!

2006-09-20T21:28:00.000-07:00

Well I've been trying to create a blog forever and have had many frustrating moments. But I'm praying that's all behind me. I just love looking at everyone blogs and especially love looking at pics of all the little ones. Well things have been crazy around here. I've decieded that's time for me to go back to work and with many prayers I think I found something perfect. The thought of leaving Abby breaks my heart but I know she will be in great hands. My job is with a nursing staff agency. I will pick my hours weekly along with the days I want to work. I'm only going to work a couple of days a week so I think it will be the best of both worlds, out of the house some and not being away from Abby that much. The job won't be without it's challenges. I will be doing Homehealth/private duty with kids. Most of them have cancer or are on a trach. I know it will be emotionaly draining but I know God will place me with the kids that really need my help. On top of that my sister-in-law and me have started our own kid's clothing line. We named it Dragon Babies. She lives in Southlake and right now we are focusing on dragon stuff. I think we will do well but of course I'm really nerveness about it. I love making them but now the pressure is on. We have our first craft show in Nov. I have so much to do to get ready for that. We don't have a website yet but I'll let everyone know when we do get one. Anyway, I'm excited to be doing what I love. I just pray that Abby will adjust ok to being at Chesley's. She is a real mommy's girl.

New York trip

2006-08-15T22:24:00.000-07:00

I went on one of the best trips I've ever gone on. Ny city is amazing. I went with my two best friends, Jenn and Kristi. We had a blast! I couldn't live there but recommend visiting. I can't wait to go back with Chaz.