Showered with Blessings!

Last night my sweet friends had the best shower for me and little Charlie. The food was wonderful and the company was even better. I feel so very blessed to have such sweet and thoughtful friends to help me celebrate this time with me. After a rough couple of weeks, this shower was something that I really needed. I'm so glad that I have Abby and Charlie to motivate me to keep going and to move on. This shower was perfect timing to help do that too. I was so excited my mom was able to be here and we've had the best week getting things ready for Charlie to be here. I did go to the doctor yesterday and unfortanly he didn't have very good news for me. Charlie is still breech and is looking like he is going to be a big baby like Abby was which means he doesn't have a lot of room to flip. My doctor is going to try to move him in a couple of weeks and we'll wait to see if Charlie stays that way. If he doesn't then we will schedule a c-section. If he does stay head down then we are still going to schedule an induction so it looks like the end of August or very first of Sept. I'm nervous to hear the word c-section. I haven't even thought about that since Abby's delivery went so smoothly and the word c-section wasn't even said. Anyway, at least I have time to prepair for that if it does have to happen. I know I'm in good hands. I'll keep everyone posted as I get closer. Thank you to all my wonderful friends for a very special shower and I can't wait to introduce my little man to all of you.

Michael, my brother and friend

As many of you know, my sweet brother, Michael went to be with Lord on Tues. He has had a hard life and has experienced so much in just 26 years. He had such a sweet spirit and was one of the most caring person that I've ever known. Growing up we were best friends. Being just 15 months apart, we did everything together including driving our parents crazy. We did everything from catching our bedroom on fire to hiding on the roof of our house. It's amazing we both made it out of childhood. It's those memories that I will fill my heart forever. Michael had many rough times and we knew that everyday was a huge struggle for him. He was a believer and I have no doubt that he is with Jesus now. God saved him so many times and I truly believe that he knew that Michael had enough of the torture he endured and needed Michael to come be with Him in heaven. He is at peace now and will no longer have those struggles. I will forever miss him and can't wait to hold him once again. The funeral went smoothly and he looked good and at peace. Everyone handled it much better than I thought but I know rough times are still ahead. Even though we all knew this was a possibility that he would end it one day, we were still shocked by it. Other than saying good-bye to Michael, the hardest thing was that my dad couldn't be there. TDC denied him being able to go. I know that he was needing that closer. I'm still numb and haven't been able to cry much, which I can't understand. I know it will hit me later because I'm use to going months without talking to him. I still can't believe today was the last time my sisters, Michael and I will all have been together. I know we will all be together again in heaven but I will miss him so very much. Thank you, Michael, for being one of my best friends and understanding me when no one else did. You will always have a place in heart and I will forever remember your beautiful smile. You were always the first to hug me and at times I had to push you away but now I wish I could hold you forever. Please know how much I love you and how special you were to me. I understand why you did what you did. I will never be mad at you for that. Just know that you will never be forgotten and I will love you forever.

Happy 30th Birthday, Chaz!

July 3rd was Chaz's birthday and it was a great one. Thank you all for coming to his party and helping us celebrate. It was a great party and since his birthday has always fallen the day before the 4th of July, he hasn't really had a party on his actual birthday. So I'm so glad we got to do that this year and so many people were able to come. It was also wonderful getting to visit with all our friends without chasing kids at the same time. It's been years since we've been together as a group without our little ones. We need to do that more often. I love our kids but it's nice to get to really have an adult conversation. Anyway, I'm glad that Chaz had a good time and that everything worked out great. I'm 31 weeks now and starting to feel more and more uncomfortable. I've also started having some contractions. I've been to the doctor a lot lately and thankfully I'm not dilating or thinning out yet. I guess my body is just getting ready for things to come. Even with that, I still feel better this time around. I had preclamsia with Abby and so far I'm not showing too many signs of that yet. I've also tired to stay more active this time and I think that's helped too. Abby is doing better with sleeping. She isn't waking up as much as she was. She has how even been showing signs that she is getting closer to turning 2. I love that little girl but sometimes I think she is trying her hardest to sent me to the nut house. I can't believe that I'm having another one while she is going through her trouble 2's. So if you see me in the next couple of months and I have this crazy look in my eye just know that it's because I've actually gone crazy and will be back to my normal self in about 18 years. Even with all that I can't wait for Charlie to be here. I look forward to watching the kids play and grow up together. I'm glad Abby will have someone to play with. I also can't wait to see what my little man looks like. I guess I don't have to wait much longer.