Counting my blessings!

This morning I went to a funeral for a baby that lived only 13 days. It was heartbreaking to watch the parents have to say good-bye to their sweet baby boy. I can't imagine that feeling. I don't think I could ever get over something like that but then again I'm sure no one thinks they would, yet they do. Losing a child, especially a baby has to be the hardest thing a person could ever do. I pray I never have to know what that feels like. I do however know what it feels like to lose a brother but that could never compare to what a parent goes through losing a child. I look at Abby's and Charlie's sweet faces and today, especially thank God that He chose for them to live healthy, happy lives. It's hard not to question why God chooses some over others to live but I do know that He is a fair and a just God. As a pediatric nurse, I see very sick children. Some who have never talked, eaten food by mouth, or looked into their parent's face and yet God choose these children to live. I think that sometimes He chooses others to go be with him to spare them from pain they would have here. I know Michael was not living a healthy, happy life and God saved him from that. I now thank God for sparing Michael anymore pain. That's a blessing to me!! I pray that someday these parents will find blessings in all this. That maybe their child was spared a lifetime of pain and suffering. He's in a place that is free from all this. It makes me so thankful for all the things that He has blessed me with. My children are such a gift and at times I forget that. Between potty training, breaking up fights and just trying to get things done around the house, today I was forced to stop all those things and remember how precious life is and how precious my children are. I don't deserve them and yet God gave them to me. I will promise the parent's of this sweet baby that I will remember the blessing that Cash was and the reminder that God giveth and He taketh away. I pray that God showers this sweet family with comfort and peace and may this remind all of us that this life is so short and we must not waste any moment. Hold your children today and show them how much of a blessing they really are.